Who am I?

Who am I?  I am a woman, wife, mom, grandma, daughter and sister.  I am 55 years old (I'm not sure how that happened).  But, really, who am I?

Who am I?  Who have I been? Who do I want to be?  Have I been who I really am?  Have I been my Authentic Self?  These questions have occupied my mind for several months now, begging for answers, taunting me to be true to who I really am, challenging me to find my authentic self.

Let's start with what I know..... I have always been that quiet, shy, insecure girl, afraid that no one would like me, certain that no one would notice me.  I have felt invisible most of my life, unmemorable....even now.  I am smart, but not very assertive.  I have my beliefs, opinions and values, but I don't always speak up.  Afraid of confrontation, afraid of not being accepted.  I need to find my voice and speak my mind.  Not in a mean way (because that isn't me), not forceful, just confident and honest.  These are just a few of my self-observations over the past several months.

So, that is my journey beginning today, January 1, 2016.  No silly resolutions, just a journey.  A soul-searching, life-changing, be honest with myself journey.