Please bear with me as I give the Merriam-Webster definition....
Audacious \ȯ-dā-shəs\ adjective
1.a. intrepidly daring: ADVENTUROUS (an audacious mountain climber)
b. bold (an audacious maneuver)
2. marked by originality and verve (audacious experiments)
au-da-cious-ly adverb --- au-da-cious-ness noun
Bold.....that's a pretty cool word and kinda scary for this gal!
Today as I was driving into town, I saw a woman in her mid to late 60's mowing her grass. She had a little "middle aged" fluffiness to her, like some of us and as I passed her I noticed that she was wearing a swimsuit. It was (thankfully) age appropriate and modest and BRIGHT FLORAL! There she was mowing her grass, minding her own business, in her own yard, oh...and puffing away on a cigarette as she mowed. I giggled to myself...no, actually, I giggle out loud. And I thought "that is so cool!". And then I said, "No, that is AU-DA-CIOUS! That is just bold!" I thought, "I want to be like that. I want to live and love audaciously".
I have to admit that I care too much about what people think of me. It's a character defect of mine. I don't want to be noticed or stand out, but if I'm noticed, I don't want there to be anything that anyone can criticize, make fun of or laugh at.... I'm just THAT insecure with myself. But this woman....I just wanted to be like her....all fluffy (ok, maybe not puffing on a cigarette), but fluffy, out there in my swimsuit on my lawn tractor and mowing my grass. No apologies, no worries of others' thoughts... just bold....just me.
This little scenario isn't exactly what this awesome book is talking about, but it (obviously) made an impact on me in a weird way. I'm not saying that I'm going to be out on my John Deer in my swimsuit (we don't want to frighten the neighbors), but I just need to be... BOLD! I'm working on it because my nature is to be quiet and blend in, but....
God wants me to live and love audiciously!
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