Well, today I have turned 54. I'm not really sure how that has happened, but here I am. I don't really feel that old (most days), but the calendar says it's true.
The past 5 years have had quite a few MAJOR life changes for me. Some sad, some great, some happy and some not so happy. All necessary, I suppose, in God's plan for my life even if I don't totally understand. There is a "Life Change stress scale" that's supposed to measure stress based on life changes. According to that, I'm surprised I'm still sane. Wait....don't ask my family about that. I have survived it all, I'm still surviving some of the changes, making adjustments in my future plans and trying to accept it all.
I'm not really where I thought I would be at this point in my life, but again, here I am. I thought I would be traveling, enjoying grandbabies, having a quiet house to share with my husband, fun family holidays and get-togethers with friends. With the exception of enjoying my precious grand daughter, it isn't like that at all. An empty-nester, but not really. My nest now includes my sweet Daddy, who requires 24 hour care. It's been a very difficult life change, often lonely, somewhat restrictive; but it is, I believe, part of God's plan for my life.
I'm not really sure exactly what the rest of God's plan is, but I am trying so hard to accept it, embrace it, enjoy it, and live it to my best ability. 54. It's not so bad.
